A Matter of Boots

Warning: This blog suffers from extreme mood swings.

*note to Felipe - I have not abandoned my blog.

PS: Sorry this turned out to be such a long post.

I miss the cold. I miss freezing on the beach or mountain at night.

I miss the random hailing, and sludgy ice. I miss wearing boots.

Hopefully though, I will be able to during my visit in New Years.

If I can find them that is...

On a somewhat lighter note,

Report cards were mailed, and I did not awesome but alright.

Its just quarter grades though, I'll pull them up before the semester end.

That means exams. Which will probably occur end November and early December.

Which means I will be super cramming on my birthday for exams the next morning.

Oh joy.

On an even lighter note,

This is something that a friend wrote, but I haven't told him I'm putting it here.

Not that it really matters, he will never know. I found it really quite funny, it definitely brought a smile to my face.

There she stands, magnificent and slender. Her outline so polished and curved to fine detail. The chrome shine reflecting the sun's bright light, defining the very essence of perfection. She stands with such strength and posture no human being could ever maintain for such a period of time. The energy flowing through immediately alters the atmosphere in the room. She brings such passion and optimism out of her surroundings. The single bundle of darkness upon her head emits such contrast to the heavenly light emitting from her face. A price tag dangles from her leg, $150. The first thought through my mind; God, I need this lamp.

Written by Sebastian Kratz.

As for everything else in my life and on my mind, we'll just have to wait and see what happens.

"Welcome to the point, the point of no return. Let the past ignite and memories burn. I say, welcome to wherever you are."

[Welcome to Wherever You Are - Ten Second Epic]

It Has Been Awhile

I really just haven't been bothered to post anything because honestly,

theres nothing noteworthy happening. Is there ever?

I feel like I need a goal, or at least some sort of direction,

otherwise I'll continue in this never ending pattern of routine.

Distractions, I need distractions. To keep me from falling back into

those horrible bad moods. But I do have hope, maybe.

So this week of school will be a full one, then I have a week off :D

Quite happy about that. Maybe. I really feel like having fun,

I really need a good distraction.

So that's it then, I need direction and distraction.

And to survive IB.

And perhaps winter in Barcelona :)

Sigh.

"Listen close enough and all else fades, fades away."[Constellations - Jack Johnson]

Oh I Love You So Very Much

"Oh I miss you so very much so much in fact i gotta call you up
It's not that I have news to bring
I just wanna make your telephone ring
So it shows and you know
In a week when I fly back home
We're gonna jump in bed and be all alone
you'll make biscuits and I'll make tea
We'll curl up close and then fall asleep
To the sound of no one else no else around"

[Sleepy Tigers - Her Space Holiday]

Update.

So, I don't have to wear uniform.

YAY. She let me off. Thanks goodness.

UN night today. So gay. Got home at like, 10:45.

I want to chose not to give a shit about anything anymore.

Keep my grades up and just wait for it all to be over.

Uninspired and Undefined. That's me.

Oppression in High School

It's the norm is it not?

So, basically I got in trouble because my shorts were too short and now have to wear school uniform for two days. FML. I was so pissed off, but now I'm just kinda laughing at it.

I can pull it off. Hahahah, I haven't worn uniform since first grade. No joke.

To hell with it. I can't wait for it to be over.

I'm gunna hike my skirt up for shit.

:D

Weekends Seem to Have Lost their Appeal

I never thought those words would ever cross my mind :S

I feel like I just waste away during the weekends, sleep too much, eat too much.

Never get anything done.

During the week, at least school is a distraction. Even then I don't know what it is that I feel the need to be distracted from. This is confusing.

I feel nothing right now, I have no long term goals, aims, nothing to look forward to.

Just more IB work and more meaningless conversations.

I love the city, just not this one.

[Sunday Best - Augustana]

I Feel Safest by the Water

I miss the beaches, the river will have to do.

There's something so soothing about being by the water,

with some good live music.

Trying to sort out everything that's running through my mind.

How am I supposed to know who I want to be

if I don't even know who I am?

Feeling, undefined and alone.

you make breaking hearts look so easy, seems like you've done this before.

[Breaking - Anberlin]