Cry Baby

Every once in awhile we need
a taste of sadness,
a tinge of loss,
to remind us that
we are human
and that we are lucky to have
something, somewhere, or someone
worth missing.

I find it hard to smile these days.

note: the lyrics to this song was originally a poem by
Johanna so I had to change a few things. I hope
you don't mind :]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k7I_5cg7MGw

My Summer Anthem

Feeling nostalgic, aren't we all?
Something is not right with my blogspot when I want to make new posts.
hmm..?

It's not perfect but I hope it's still meaningful.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2rC-4tGGg-c

Hug Deprevation

I know it might sound pathetic, but I really miss the tons of hugs I used to give and recieve back in Barcelona.

I've told my parents this, to which they then proceed to try and hug me but it's not the same. Of course it isn't.

School is getting better, IB is getting more hectic. And its only the second week. Save me. No, not really.

I can't wait for next summer, but then again I'm in touch with my nerdy side and am actually enjoying most classes.

I don't get economics for crap though. I'll have to read the textbook.

Should be getting a new laptop soon, which I am super excited and happy about. It's gunna be a Macbook Pro.

I'm converting. And I guess I'll just see how my life goes from there.

ps. thanks felipe for helping me with my spanish homework. i thought you deserved a shoutout :]

[Unwinding Cable Car - Anberlin]

music is the only thing that's always there for me, until my ipod dies.

"It just takes some time,
little girl you're in the middle of the ride.
Everything (everything) will be just fine,
everything (everything) will be alright (alright)."

-jimmy eat world//it just takes some time-

I'll Try to Smile

Been doing some much needed songwriting/venting.
Here's the product:

"Sometimes I wish I could wake up back in Barcelona,
where the sun is shining and my friends are smiling
and waiting for me.

I miss the view of the city from the mountain top,
miss watching my friends blaze up.
I miss walking through the city streets and planning
parties for next week.

I miss how we could be anywhere at anytime it didn't
even matter. Just as long as we were together.
And I'll bet you a million dollars that won't change,
next time we see each other it will be exactly the
same."


That's all I got so far. I really shouldn't have stopped playing guitar
for three weeks, now my fingers are in pain. Hahaha :]

I've decided to stop hating the present and appreciate the past instead.




[Smile - McFly]

About Time to Start a Countdown Eh?

So things change.
Plans are never certain are they.

Turns out I'm leaving this amazing city on the 11th of July. Next Saturday I believe. That means that I've missed some proper goodbyes and really need to get on with writing all those soppy goodbye letters. Wow. I really need to write a to-do list. Multiple ones maybe. Hahahaha, wow that's pretty pathetic. I think we really need to learn to appreciate the time that we have doing this as simple as walking in the city center, or siting in a park so that we don't regret anything when those times have faded.

I love my friends to death and will miss them so much when I can't see them everyday. For now, I'll spend and enjoy every moment I have with them. BCN '09.

-12days-

[All We Are - OneRepublic]

Lines and Dots

Sometimes, what we want to say can be said in a matter of words. Sometimes it takes full sentences. Yet we depend on these words to get a meaning across. I feel that even though words are effective and perhaps clearer, one look or expression can tell a person exactly what I'm thinking, if only they choose to pick up on that.

Pity. When someones says they feel sorry for you, should that make you feel better? Or does it in fact make you feel worse because its established that you're in a position that sucks (thats what she said). How does one respond when a friend says "Oh man, I feel really sorry for you." Do you reply with a thank you? Or a "Yeah I know right."

When does the idea of a goodbye really kick in? Is it after a few hours, a few days? It sucks when you realize that you really need that singular persons wise words and supportive advice, and they aren't present to give them. Maybe even when you just miss their ridiculous laugh. I love you Johanna and I miss you. Real friends are hard to come by.

So after these few words, what has happened, what has changed. Nothing, but perhaps I've received peace of mind or simple acceptance. Who knows, I guess it doesn't even really matter.